Good Intentions

Dear Karen-

Yeah. Good intentions. I have so many and yet I often begin to wonder if they are just pipe dreams. Do you ever feel that way? So many things that I want/need/ought to do...but I think I get so afraid that whatever I do won't be "good enough" (who polices that, anyway?) that I simply do nothing instead. I don't like to talk about it, really, but I'm watching one of our favorite movies and of course it deals heavily with this issue.

I want to be like Tracy, or like the new-lease-on-life Edna...I think I've got that inside somewhere. Unfortunately, the pathetic wallflower voice inside sometimes speaks a bit louder in my mind.

I'm sure it sounds like I'm all "po', po', pitiful me" or just plain depressed and I'm really not...I'm just pondering these things. I feel like I'm on the cusp of big changes and I want them to be for the better. OK, with the upcoming move and all it's not so much a feeling - but there are some changes that need to be made whether I'm moving or not.

Does any of this make any sense?

On a completely different note, you really must look at this - but I warn you, don't have a drink in your mouth when you do.

Love,
Julie